What do you want to know? How do you want to know? A lot of the time, what YOU need to know is NOT decided by the living. There is no God without your pain. God suffers dearly for his sinister truths. Truth cuts through policy. Some of us just know better to not engage in delusion and conspiracy. Delusion and conspiracy can no longer distract from with your addiction to the suffering which indulges your victimhood. That’s God’s choice life includes your vindication God doesn’t exist true (to you). Why would God, hurt us? Earth may not be heaven. That explains our vanity to thumb your nose at pain. You resent pain because you act as if pain is beneath you. How vain! Combat lives rent free in your head. You were trained to observe focus to the tune of saving lives with bravery. Let me tell you something soldier…the cure for combat is WORSE than the disease. That’s your war. You man enough to face yourself?
Write a journal as honest as you dare. Publish it as a fuck you to anyone that doesn’t respect soldiers. That’s your mission. Educate to the masses of the horrors their ignorantly elected policy caused. Your service spoils the rot of idiocrasy (with combat). Fuck those cock suckers. Conflict doesn’t end with war. You hold on to the pain…to be brave. Suicide is brave. Jesus is sane. What’s your excuse? There IS no excuse! You’re not allowed to deviate! Is that clear!? Trust your government to save your life. How? How can we trust a vehicle that launders blood money? You’ve seen the cost of war forever define your ego. I am not a victim, I help them.