14 - Pleasured by Control – 438 words

Expectations are bursts of hope fueled by perceived facts that are confirmed through (un)surprising results.  What kind of results?  Adulation, financial and sexual success.  What makes someone have surprising results to an expectation?  Was your…expectation too conservative for a change?  Were the/your perceived facts skewed by a spouse?  Bias can be self-inflicted or delivered by others with the might of God’s disdain.  Can criticism RAISE expectations?  I think if there’s room for improvement it may serve as a relief, because there’s more ceiling to your growth.  That’s what I hope for myself, to have the maturity and perspective to adjust expectations based on perceived facts confirmed by any result, really.  Results can be constructive.  I pray my writing could be criticized in a way that RAISES my ceiling.  If results are limited by your audience’s skillset, your expectations compensate by resisting and resenting growth.  The isolation of expectations can increase or sink your reaction to results that support your victimhood. 
 
“I’m so tortured by my MIND…”
 
The incentive for your audience to exert themselves (with their description) raises your ceiling; a direct result of the value your audience PERCEIVES as valuable.  Does that motivate your audience to heap praise or express gross disinterest?  Do we subconsciously choose a stunted crowd to boost our ego?  There’s no point to hold on to poor ideas unless those ideas specifically define our unique grasp of fallibility.  If your audience adores your ego, what incentive is there to evolve self?  That’s the creative rut we experience; depending on poor ideas to give unsurprising results.  That’s crazy to think poor ideas are so popular because crazy doesn’t change.  Eventually we want to be surprised again by new ideas delivering even MORE surprise than our nostalgia.  Hence the key of asking and answering well thought out and unique questions.  If your audience is not open to evolving the (winning) formula, those results may make you sick.  Why sick?  Evolution is the lifeblood of living.  If life stopped time in its tracks now, could you tolerate the rest of your life?  Would your audience tolerate your stagnation?  Home cooking never changes for a reason because we are happy to tolerate time’s pleasure to pause… not innovate.  Tolerate time thrill-seekers. 
 
I am dumbfounded by time’s march through repetition.  Tradition pauses the cycle…on how and when our ancestors also tolerated pause; the land taught them.  More freedom leads to pause.  Why?  Be your country.  Be your people.  It’s honest.  Honesty is a liar’s law.  Because law lies to itself.  The truth is law, and law is above crime.  That’s why corruption wins.  Corruption is pleasured by control.