Youth is the gift of attracting attention. Seeking an audience is an exercise of indulgence. The indulgence that keeps our fantasies alive, through constant praise and worship. Youth is spoiled with fantasies of fame. What element of humanity of those who promise fantasies will become reality? The vane. Why? True vanity doesn’t require attention because self obliges delusions and conspiracies; without encouraging the adoption of differing opinions. Why? Reality scoffs at your suffering. You can only ignore reality to avoid pain; entitled on the backs (of slave labour) you victimize yourself to support comrades. Why? You are your own slave. Reality is Youth’s Disability.
Nostalgia is the type of vanity that crowns your ego on the back of slave’s attention span. Slavery is the inability for stubbornness to change. Boredom is a sign your life could be better. That’s why slaves obey their masters. Vanity. Vanity is your Master. That’s why the past eats your attention with a youth’s truth. The idea you are reborn young again. Young again is a disability. One that makes slaves out of voters’ vanity. Stubbornness is the cornerstone of politics. I am always right because I avoid the truth when it suits me. Does that make originality a lie. Lie? Originality is stubborn. Universities teach your time to trust that debt is a good investment. THEN…you can’t find a job to pay it off. Activism pays off your debt. Activism controls capitalist governments with cheap goods. The citizen of the west knows nothing of slavery. Slavery is the god of Queens.
I am a non-academic doctorate in psychosis. I spent 7+ years unpacking three days of insanity. I’ve written 9 books, self-published three. I am 99% honest. Anyone that tells you they are 100% honest, live to regard reality as a nuisance (when it suits).
My brother asked me to write about grace. I know very little about grace. Life is elegant goodwill because elegance can disguise as good (the more confidence you build). Goodwill is not moral. Donating to an abortion clinic is technically goodwill. That’s why the voting system is fallible. Export political enemies, import comrades. Is government “elegant”? Astonishingly man worships confidence over conscience. Why? Plebs vote for their political fall guy which takes the blame your cast vote deserves to avoid “injuring your energy”. Confidence that is YOUR priority to function with “positivity surplus.” Yay you! We are all stars in OUR own fantasies. For the spirit of God breeds doubters. That’s why God forgives you. Why would God make his children suffer? The price to be God is your pain. That’s why God forgives you. God is not beneath suffering. Does government forgive you though? Does government succeed where God fails? Man, worships CONFIDENCE to reject conscience; to avoid exposing their immutable flaw. Flaws are normal and registering our conscience can be DENIED by the mechanism of confidence; designed to AVOID flaw, not accept it. Grace to the Grave heals the pasture. Energy is bisexual. Would that reality be graceful? What is Grace without the grave.
On the drive home from the hospital, I stopped at a red light. A brown woman holding a small placard was approaching cars in front of me, for some desperate charity. I was the fourth car back and my immediate reaction was,
“I hope the light turns green before she reaches my car.”
When I realized that would not happen, something I invented years ago came to mind,
“Is stealing theft if the gullible give?”
Given the speed of light our brain absorbs must acknowledge perception stifles one’s conscience to perform normally (i.e., the focus on the brown woman’s skin). I shifted my suspicion (about the mother’s situation) towards exercising conscience. Honesty is a given to be normal. This lady swallowed her pride in a way, I’ve always had the privilege to avoid (poverty), thanks to my family’s stubborn priorities. The ideal requires I exercise pride. Beckoned by my ideal definition of ideal, I reached into my wallet and pulled out a fifty-dollar bill. I rolled down my window and we faced each other (with mutual insanity) as we proclaimed in unison,
“God bless you.” We shocked each other with God’s love. Don’t you love when hope wins, or is it too religious?
What is normal? Normalcy is the hope one avoids conflict of conscience. One’s conscience is calculated by the fallible justice we define with(out) pride. I respect the prideless, even if it’s my own confession. To be normal is to avoid conflict of conscience. Normalcy is not a breeze to accomplish. Why? Normal people are sparsely gifted; so unique with this natural normalcy is especially practiced by serial victims. Normalcy REQUIRES you swallow your fucking pride to feed your family. Would you pan-handle at intersections to feed your family? To feed your family is normal. Why should pride influence normalcy? Respect? HA! Respect alone is not moral because it’s corrupted by fear, greed, and politics. Normalcy is pride’s road into salvation. I have pride because today I exercised my conscience. She had pride because she exercised her conscience. Are mothers normal? Moms do all they can, that’s all they can do. Wives be charitable with your husband’s pussy. Stay away from the playas a.k.a. talented bums.
What makes a mother normal? Marrying a charity case. Do mothers regard this as a mistake or a triumph? If the mother’s charity doesn’t improve her marriage (with free pussy), why should wives support talented bums? Stop being dumb you two. Talented bums just break conscience down into an artform. I call this phenomenon ‘Sardonicism.’ You call it the muse. Home cooking humbles hearts. If males can’t accept charity (because of their selfish pride) that doesn’t make for “ideal” masculine behaviours. Boys learn how to regret mother’s charity from their fathers because fathers resent their wives with isolating hobbies. Normal does not represent the visibly present, but what it should be; by how justice is truly defined by the people defining ideals through fear, greed, and politics. Justice is normal, so why the fuck is it extinct? The Deviant Gene IS to be. That’s the sunken dread there’s no turning back from your lamentable nostalgia for Jesus’ crucifixion. Soul is your connection to the definition of the most ideal consequence of fallibility. The ideal forgave YOUR flaws. Isn’t that ideal great for serial victims? Is that normal? SHOULD that exist…as normal? Don’t you see through charity’s false salvation? I choose to be meek. To avoid conflict of conscience is to be normal. That’s why I’m not an evangelist. It’s my foundation to not care about my idea’s adoption. Death and old age always sorts out bad ideas.
Immutable flaw requires forgiveness if tomorrow’s humanity can be allowed to evolve normally. Flaw is normal because no one is perfect when we resent other people’s ideals. Is normal the ideal, or perfection. What’s more obtainable? Humanity loves to deny their flaws with delusion and conspiracy. Those rabbit holes CHASE perfection. Debt is the currency of crisis. Maybe normalcy is honest about humanity’s proclivity to benefit from a (planned) crisis. Your conscience without fail, ignores your disappointment. Flaw is normal.
Definition of Trine:
an aspect of 120° (one third of a circle)."Venus in trine to Mars"
(of a planet) be in a trine aspect with (another planet or position)."Jupiter trines Pluto all month"
Please endorse me as a local Shy-Narcissist and respect my genius with your time. I pray for the courage to believe in God when faith is not simple. Changing minds is something alternative to the pastime of trine. Why does the absence of flaw signal awe without suspicion? The veneer of sincerity runs deep. Why? The focus on avoiding scandal is only matched by the growing suspicion of claims. Why? Denial is a popular pastime. Debt is a counterbalance to denial’s sincerity, that triggers our conscious commitment to poor judgement. It’s not a guarantee you will sin.
“I’m always right and your always wrong.”
”All I want is the truth.”
Yeah right…give me a break. I’m not asking, I’m telling. Customer (service) must respect genius at all times. Why? That’s my specialty. If I can’t entertain with my intelligence I regress into my delicious bonds of madness: achieving the impossible. That’s impossible. Exactly. Please be charitable with your time.
(Self) Worth SIMULATES… esteem to the task of convincing those who are AWARE of the “signals” to detect (and avoid) counterfeit evangelists. Esteem sells you something too good to be true. If the veneer of sincerity runs deep… shy losers preach altruism. What do narcissistic cheats gain from this? Delicious bonds of madness. Why does the absence of flaw (where flaw should be) signal awe without suspicion? Esteem is a magic trick. Man is ignorant to the follies of awe, and the follies are documented in banks linked to our debt. Debt is the currency of our conscience. What are you ashamed of? The follies of awe keep you from exploring conscience soberly. What is sobering is all sin is purely a derivative of immutable flaw. Immutable flaw is ignored through debt production and debt consumption.
The shy loser preaches altruism (as a magic trick), while the narcissistic cheat sells you a “quick” way out of your dirty conscience with sheer wizardry. Why debt? Citizens prefer bondage. Humans are bounded by their delusions and conspiracies to the tune of trine. Kinship with awe signals a bond that starves us of reason (and freedom). Why? The production and consumption of debt signals to the sin we hand control with blind bliss. The follies of awe love suckers. Conflict doesn’t end with debt, so heaven is the folly of awe. Counterfeit evangelists are false prophets. I am a Sardonic Poet. I love God, but poetry is my hero. This is my club: Brainsmithy. Sorry, members only. Brainsmithy is my social network. I do this to achieve sanity. I don’t want celebrity. Just looking for a few friends. Friends agree to adopt bullshit.
17 I keep asking that the God of our Lord Jesus Christ, the glorious Father, may give you the Spirit of wisdom and revelation, so that you may know him better. 18 I pray that the eyes of your heart may be enlightened in order that you may know the hope to which he has called you, the riches of his glorious inheritance in his holy people, 19 and his incomparably great power for us who believe. That power is the same as the mighty strength 20 he exerted when he raised Christ from the dead and seated him at his right hand in the heavenly realms, 21 far above all rule and authority, power and dominion, and every name that is invoked, not only in the present age but also in the one to come. 22 And God placed all things under his feet and appointed him to be head over everything for the church, 23 which is his body, the fullness of him who fills everything in every way.
Sardonic Poet's interpretation:
17 Those that are above God are beneath freedom. 18 Your heart inherits enlightenment that your mind's inspiration accepts the desire to sin makes us fallible. 19 Belief trumps pessimism. 20 The ideal leads the way through those who feed from sin. 21 Time (itself) obeys. 22 Earth spins to the tune of toes. 23 His flesh fills our skin like pouring wine.
Gravity entertains our desire (for ascension) by identifying what is up. Is gravity friend or foe? In the deepest despair I always know the direction of up. Up typically represents ascension. Yet, we cannot leave the ground without the ambition to dare. What if I told you that hell is above AND below. Now “up”… represents a false beacon. Humans can’t fly like a bird, but we can fall as far as gravity takes us. If hell is above and below, why is gravity so determined to keep us grounded in reality’s nucleus; NEVER to entertain the demons that surround us. If we could fly like we fall, would we pine to plummet? If humanity could fly like the clouds, wouldn’t you want your tears to nourish? Gravity is God’s endeavor to obey wonder. Humanity does not obey limitations. Humanity expects limitations to obey THEIR compulsion to dare. Daring to fly traps us…within the fog of denial; the denial we DARE command God’s wonder to accommodate delusions and conspiracies. The depths of despair fell because that’s when gravity suits a victim’s agenda to OBEY free-fall: A Pauper’s Pity. OBEY gravity to resist your daring. Why? Growth stretches the definition of reward to justify STRUGGLE. The wall is as tall as your fall.
What do you want to know? How do you want to know? A lot of the time, what YOU need to know is NOT decided by the living. There is no God without your pain. God suffers dearly for his sinister truths. Truth cuts through policy. Some of us just know better to not engage in delusion and conspiracy. Delusion and conspiracy can no longer distract from with your addiction to the suffering which indulges your victimhood. That’s God’s choice life includes your vindication God doesn’t exist true (to you). Why would God, hurt us? Earth may not be heaven. That explains our vanity to thumb your nose at pain. You resent pain because you act as if pain is beneath you. How vain! Combat lives rent free in your head. You were trained to observe focus to the tune of saving lives with bravery. Let me tell you something soldier…the cure for combat is WORSE than the disease. That’s your war. You man enough to face yourself?
Write a journal as honest as you dare. Publish it as a fuck you to anyone that doesn’t respect soldiers. That’s your mission. Educate to the masses of the horrors their ignorantly elected policy caused. Your service spoils the rot of idiocrasy (with combat). Fuck those cock suckers. Conflict doesn’t end with war. You hold on to the pain…to be brave. Suicide is brave. Jesus is sane. What’s your excuse? There IS no excuse! You’re not allowed to deviate! Is that clear!? Trust your government to save your life. How? How can we trust a vehicle that launders blood money? You’ve seen the cost of war forever define your ego. I am not a victim, I help them.
The idea of humanity’s ideal virtues (of perfection) reflects their flaws with impunity. Why argue with perfection? Why celebrate it? A circle is perfection, so why spiral out of control? Flaws are infallible because the idea of humanity’s ideal virtues (of perfection) reflects the mirror of love; know in your heart that love alone is not moral. Flaws (to love) are so bountiful. Promiscuity is a flaw, but horny retards sure do love it. Why would a human idea of humanity’s virtue (of perfection) reflect flaw with impunity? Are you not entertained?! The answer is the belief-relief of forgiveness. People die every day…the idea of human’s ideal virtues (of perfection) reflects their flaws with impunity, because ideals give relief to ignore humanity’s immutable flaw: incestuous-pedophilia. The best humanity can do is relieve themselves of this denial with delusion and conspiracy. Enjoy it while life lasts…we all deviate from time to time. Ask the human ideal for forgiveness, and your belief-relief mechanism will be engaged. Stillbirth ideas are missed by the destiny of perfection: the idea of God defies logic. Exactly.
Logic is structured (around the constipation) towards the deviation of virtuous ideals. Are YOU above THE ideal? Then how the fuck can you prove Christ is wrong? You are a limited ideal. You will never rise to God without being vulnerable to his MANY criticisms. You believe logic is correct. You experiment. Confirm results. NOW…you know. Ideas start out as a belief, then it’s up to you to leap. God WILL catch you, like he did me in psychosis. He caught me and holy FUCK did the truth hurt with the might of his knowing. Even with my conviction, I’m not an evangelist. I don’t give a shit about your beliefs. I will try and deviate from my ideas to memorize facts you fallibly confirm. What’s a fact now? What was a fact before me making this claim? What claim? Fact is a (human) ideal. Doctors love the impunity. Doctors are not very brave because they rely on their reputation of their doctorate. Because they are fragile genius itself. Ask me how I know…Oh that’s right, I’m non-academic. WTF do I know about genius? I’m justa Canadian-Italian mongoloid touched by the “ideal.” At the end of the day your faith may be wrongly coveted. Covet your flaw’s humanity. That should clean your conscience. Virginity is the most fragile thing you can gift your wedded spouse. Don’t be afraid to grow up with the idea of ideals.
One represents God, one represents magic, and one represents science. This is my inner circle. I want my circle to agree with my ideas. That means I’m expected to accommodate your bias. My depreciating order is as follows:
I will acknowledge you exist publicly, but I never reveal your identity; not even to each other. When all three of you agree with my writing (case by case), I will achieve ‘Soulistic Equilibrium.’ “Soulistic” is a made-up word, but I feel like it should be a word. To achieve this, I must reverse my order of depreciation:
Famine is where delusions, conspiracies and denial go to die (on your watch). Famine is a doctor’s bias. There’s such thing as shared bias because of ideology... Bias can be proven correct (by doctors) WITHOUT help from faith and fantasy. Yet the majority always has two perspectives against one... Each of you will always be outnumbered ideologically through bullying (i.e., Magic and Science against God). This is a tool to leave my children to prevent repeating my mistakes while learning from my journal. I have three journals:
You can comment on each journal entry if you want your ideas RECORDED anonymously. These online journals are orphaned from my website’s navigation. I do not advertise to your demons, but your ideas have potential exposure to the natural order of the universe. I will never take your comments down. They are in STONE. Do you have a clean conscience? This is what I need in exchange for units worked earning revenue (free of charge). My unorthodox stimulation is an insight into straight, white men. That is:
Mansplaining. Claim after claim after claim fathers never discover facts intelligently; it’s all thanks to the gift of Psychosis. Psychosis was my 7+ year (non-academic) Mythology into Psychosis. My claims, if explored will engage your laziness, because you refuse to learn anything that deviates. You have an imbalance in your ‘Soulistic Equilibrium.’ Maybe I can help. I don’t charge, and I don’t pay. All I ask is for you to climb “my” way out of God’s hell. How? Write and illustrate your own book. Publish it. I don’t trust money, but I can’t ignore the fact that the rich love to lie in secret. The public will believe everything authority commands. I’m just clearing my conscience, is that entertaining? Fathers dunk like Jordan OFF the court. One World Economy stimulates sin to flow. Why? Transition breeds…pleasure.
If your time has value, it’s up to the individual to advertise THAT to the world. How does one exchange time? What has value (to confirm) for units of measured work exercising profit? If that value is finite, it’s an inherently finite degree which amplifies greed (because of its scarcity); only an ore cannot advertise itself without woke vanity. The reflection of gold I-mean good…is God. That took the work of humanity to recognize the value of a (finite) beauty, is the vanity it serves customers. You are limited by your biology to make best of time, without ruining your health. Someone else’s health however…their misery is valuable. Cheap labour enjoys pain. Atheism is the god of war, against God. Misery comes from your immutable flaws. I’m not an evangelist, just a nerd for reality. I’m a Reality Nerd.