4 – Time is Inevitable - 373 words

1Stillness, breathing, and comfort seem to encourage the uneasiness.  2A feeling of despair disconnected from the source seems to block introspection from discovering why one cannot overcome.  3It’s emasculating to ask my wife to smother my body with her weight to create a distraction.  4It’s been a lot worse in the past, so I guess I’m thankful I’m not rocking back and forth in the fetal position on the floor.  5What’s the purpose?  6What force can operate without detection.  7I have a guess as to what is responsible but that’s not enough to dissipate the emasculation.  8Maybe my ego is suffering, or maybe my ego is punishing me for not being perfect.  9This invisible force revels in my despair without detection.  10That’s a true abuse of power I’m sure most people would wish on their enemies.  11Who is my enemy?  12A coward.  13Only a coward doesn’t take responsibility.  14A coward is truthful but afraid of truth.  15The truth is…I resent pain.  16I resent it because there’s no clear reason why I deserve this treatment.  17There is no reason other than to remind me I’m not perfect.
 
18Maybe there’s a monthly quota everyone must suffer?  19If there’s no reason to suffer, that doesn’t stop suffering from behaving like God designed it.  20Without suffering there would be no euphoria to celebrate the victory of overcoming.  21Time is inevitable.  22Pain is scheduled by the tumbling perception of God’s love.  23God love’s our heartache and that’s why he forgives us.  24Jesus saved us.  25For the demons that exist in our mind’s simulation of doubt, pain has no purpose beyond reminding us that our fate can be an eternity of pain.  26Pain alone is a reminder to be thankful when faith is simple.  27Do not resent pain.  28Do not resent suffering.  29This is the human experience.  30Earth is not heaven.  31Earth may be the closest thing to heaven we experience.  32Pain reminds us that time is inevitable; do not die with regret.  33Avoid regret by praising pain’s mandate to remind you it could be worse.  34I feel better knowing that.  35Pray to God for comfort to release HIS pain.  36God suffers with the might of time; God cannot regret.
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37Heaven will be worth the price of finite pain.