143 - I am looking for lonely people to be friends (808 words)

Narrated by James McCreadie

Shame is the marriage between guilt and ego.  Guilt is why we thrive in denial.  Ego is why we never accept we can forgive ourselves.  Our conscience is comprised of a scale (see above) with two opposites: Delusion and Conspiracy.  I believe politics is an exercise in conscience, which explains why denial is the policy of liars.  Public figures coax our conscience into accepting denial’s participation is necessary, in the process of deciding what is moral.  Do you accept that?  The problem with conscience is that it’s a double-edged sword.  The default response to an accusation is the reaction (to denial) is with denial; in the direction of delusion or conspiracy (see above).  Like skipping a flat stone across still water, our position skips left or right as acceptance grows more agreeable; skipping back and forth as one's conscience is agitated.  To me delusion is represented by the extreme political left, and the extreme political right is represented by conspiracy.  Each have insight into each other which makes the response to their accusations predictable.  The accuracy of these "prophecies" inevitability strokes our egos with the admirable critique of celebrity.  The delusional become conspiracists, and the conspiracists become delusional.  Accusers fixate on what they can identify as unjust, ironically they are guilty of injustice (by their own definition).  The accusers are the victims of hypocrisy.
 
Predictability is considered a weakness because illusiveness evades the pinpointing of denial (to be exploited), much like a boxer slipping an opponent’s jab.  The opposite of ego is humility.  When we are humble, we accept immediately our position in the spectrum of our conscience.  The politically centered.  In all honesty, "group think" has more to do with defensive posturing than offensive.  Why?  People in denial will gladly skip up or down the spectrum of conscience (through the mine field of denial) until they reach the absolute LIMIT of opinion.  Ironically, their ego incentivizes the individual with not settle for less, and this temptation rewards embracing extreme views with camaraderie (i.e., vaxxers and anti-vaxxers).  This is why the conscience is largely a bipolar affair.  Humbled outliers hug the center of the spectrum because as an action dribbles instances of reality (into their conscience), the humbled have the capability to immediately accept what is moral without prejudice.  Their position is made clear through their acute intelligence and courage to publicly concede or offend appropriately.  People in denial live with the weight of their lies, sizzling on the hot skillet (of denial).  Popping-sparks-of-oily-spit-stinging-their-heels with the reaction to deny (with denial); acceptance is their safe haven from the ironic pain.  Pain doesn't humble itself fast enough, so time remedies that with the torture of involuntary boredom, especially through addiction and sloth.  
 
Guilt is exercising the inability to react to conscience with humility; ego enables guilt to grow freely as a point of misplaced pride.  Why?  Vanity.  Never give in to the enemy.  Who’s your enemy?  Ego deems you as the enemy.  Can you forgive yourself?  No?  Why?  You may need others (with the courage) to forgive (via proxy) because I speak from experience; I haven’t the courage to know how or when to concede or offend others appropriately (like a comedian).  Why?  The consequence of honesty makes you a target for ridicule when your attempts to concede or offend are mistimed.  This is so because EVERYONE recognizes this opportunity to EXPLOIT others because it doesn’t require courage to critique with vanity, especially if it deflects from their own guilt to accept they can't forgive themselves without help.   Jesus doesn't exploit.  Exploitation is a cathartic ruse that in a cowardly way exercises a liar’s conscience to make ends meet briefly.  Hence the addiction to relief.  Celebrity gossip is the prime example.  To remain topical, one shares their "take" on morality to exercise their conscience as a take. 

​This “take” (by default) divides with the acceptance of our triumphs and flaws, or...deny yourself the opportunity (thanks to your pride).  Acceptance could represent blind devotion.  Denial, could represent disassociating publicly (and exclusively) to disguise one’s own guilt.  What cowards!  Only the humble can forgive themselves.  God humbles us with his infinite capacity to forgive.  Our faith in God is finite because our consciousness is limited.  Insanity (i.e., psychosis) is expressed to hyper-expand our consciousness beyond the denial we LONG to avoid our doubt in Christ.  That relationship between acceptance and denial breeds guilt within those who are slaves to their ego’s misplaced pride.  If it’s appropriate to forgive myself, then what do I gain by ignoring that opportunity (like so many)?  If humble outliers remain lonely (together), prideful comrades grow in numbers, enabling their reactions to deny with denial (not acceptance).  That cycle establishes bonds faster than solitude can.  That's a problem, because humble people are being outbred by those who lazily deny their flaw's opportunity to heal with acceptance.  That requires insight from a guru.  Me.
 
I am looking for lonely people to be friends.  I am a guru for charity.