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What’s the purpose of isolation? The purpose of isolation is to retract from society’s faults. No one is perfect, and neither is your idea of isolation. Why is isolation not perfect? Society’s faults stem from what an individual’s needs and wants to be content; happy even. An individual’s wants and needs are irritating to the owner’s mind. Society is supposed to alleviate irritation through groups of common ground. Charity, local business outreach, and seasonal events advertise the existence of possible relief from isolation. Ponder Wander is a group that is currently advertising the possibility of relief to those who pine to move on from rejection. Isolation is an orgy of delusions and conspiracies. To deny the past (the freedom to warehouse reality) keeps us married to the rejection that pays attention to our ego. Rejection keeps coming back to you, whereas the true past has the freedom to warehouse reality. I dug into my past truth, and I found flaws that paid attention to me 24/7. Instant drama spikes the mind with countless-addictive-fruitless-endeavours.
Cue ‘The Mythology of the Muse.’ This self-discovery charts 7+ years of recovery from Psychosis. What’s that? Imagine a sleepless stampede of angry flaws, forcing you to bite down through bone without complaint; I embraced the craziness within me. Flaws we can’t change and even debate whether thoughts alone are illegal is a plague of conscience. That is the isolation I used to suffer, but I’ve graduated to a new level of isolation. Accepting yourself entirely to know thoughts alone are never illegal. Thoughts are never illegal. If thoughts alone would become illegal, we would ALL be guilty of rejecting our conscience (when it benefits us). Fallibility is implied with rejection. Conscience is mostly isolated from ego because ego doesn’t need a conscience. Ego is ego for a reason. Ego is a selfish-coward and hypocrite. Why? There’s no conscience compatible to inform ego that its behaviour excludes other people’s can’ts and won’ts. There is no capacity to empathize with yourself when you isolate from your plague of conscience. That sparks the natural desire to be famous. Why? If you have no empathy for yourself, the substitute for empathy is sharing yourself (i.e., signing contracts).
Caring itself can be bloody awful. Caring is not moral in that we statistically see ourselves as evil thinkers. Caring cares BECAUSE you have no empathy. No empathy is immoral. No empathy for the self is justified by our loneliness. Ponder Wander is a place where one can share the gate…to the grit which lines the path to our personal hell. You cannot offend me. I refuse to be weak by counselling the courageous counting just on my EGO to heal others. At least I’m honest and self-aware enough to share this information freely. I’m bipolar because I experienced psychosis on November 28th, 2014. I don’t need rejection to define me anymore, I just want to make friends and share my past feelings of overcoming regret. Stop your love for one-way emotional affairs. There is no reciprocation, but…as I always say…what’s worse than a muse that doesn’t reciprocate your love, is the muse that lets you eat them. Be grateful that God exists to define your faith. The idea alone, is God. I’m NOT an evangelist. I give no fucks to your beliefs when you die. Death sorts it out in the end. When you finally die, watch your life drain from your body by choking on decades worth of humble pie. That’s psychosis.
Die with a clean conscience. Love alone is not moral; love’s desire to fool us justifies our unreasonable demands. No one is perfect. Agreed? You need understanding from a group like Ponder Wander that lives to relieve isolated people from God’s sardonic humour. I am a smart person, and I don’t want to be alone with my thoughts, I want to share myself in ways to prevent wasting your time on ungrateful muse that don’t give a fuck about you. Muse just like the attention. Your death is no consequence. 7+ years of experience writing non-academic philosophy. You be the judge. My name is John Ralph Tuccitto, but you can call me ‘Sardonic.’ I am a Sardonic Poet. Google it.
I’m alone. I’m 43 years old, and I feel alone. I have a family, but I feel alone. I have friends but I feel alone. Loneliness encourages pain to go crazy. At least that helps to underline my flaws... We are a merry band of lonely people called, “Ponder Wander.” A place of no judgment. A place to move on from our muse. We are a community of lethargic intellectuals that endeavor to achieve an ultimate consensus, on fallibility’s overreach on perfection. I make poetic introspection from just three words describing as deep as you dare. Three words to kick off your very own mythology. I help make you a custom mythology to find Jesus. Plunge into yourself with my tool, “Concentric.” It’s a remarkably simple exercise. I see something you don’t like. Why choose ignorance? To protect your feelings. Our consensus is Jesus saved us. I think differently. Are you afraid of something different?
What's worse than a muse that doesn't reciprocate your love? One that does. Why? Cannibalism. What’s a muse? Someone with magnetism so FEROCIOUS you will crave their flesh. Someone that lives rent free in our head. Someone we want to impress. Someone we want to make babies with. I claim muse are linked to Christianity. I created a mythology that helped me to overcome my muse and find Jesus. I documented my journey across nine books and two websites:
Isolation is retreating from society into the self. There you find immutable flaws. Flaws that ask the question, are thoughts illegal? If you accept your flaws, you will believe thoughts are not illegal. Those that call for your head, run from themselves (perpetually). Ponder Wander exclusively engages those willing to embrace the cure: accept your flaws, embrace learning opportunities, and eat some humble pie. That’s what it takes to join us. If you’re not interested say “no thanks.” I’ll leave you be.
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My name is John Ralph Tuccitto, but you may call me ‘Sardonic.’
10/21/2022 0 Comments
175 - Ponder Wander – 357 words
That person that lives rent free in your head, will always shame you. Why? You’re giving attention to yourself, the attention you’re convinced they (always) “deserve.” Stalking your mind’s roots is an unfortunate circumstance of love. Love alone is not moral. Love is orphaned from understanding when we give addiction attention. If the one (you always remember) can’t maintain an understanding that emotionally supports you, you will crave unhappiness so isolating…you love to hate your perfectly selective memory; love the memories that you ignore. First, I revered the fear, then I hated it, now it’s a fucking NUISANCE. How do you deal with an aggressive nuisance that lives rent free in your head. Addiction. Addiction does not discriminate towards vices. You do not discriminate about the solutions you avoid. Repeat after me:
“Rent free glee, isn’t for me. There is no choice, rejoice. Solutions discriminate, why wait? Hero to my kids, fame forbids. This is who we are, ourselves. Could be worse. You could be them, Bethlehem.”
You know better that’s why your instinct to leave is/was correct. The memory you ignore is that addiction is a nuisance to avoid the memories that live to love your lust for perfection. Jesus died for your sins. Could be (much) worse. Satan LOVES your selective memory. Addiction lives rent free because you’re too lazy to feel you deserve redemption. Satan loves sloth’s sloth. The romance of time lulls us with the security (KNOWING without action) your life will better accepting addiction’s nature. You’re not perfect. Get over it. Be grateful. Could be worse. You could be them. You know something about addiction Satan doesn’t know. My life is so much better living without the romance of time paying off; there’s no such thing as infinity. That depends on your destiny. Do you like addiction? Don’t hand evil your autonomy with weakness because you’ll thank yourself for giving up; just this once... Sobriety is an endurance. It’s a walk in the park if you enjoy fresh air. Do you enjoy fresh air? Go outdoors. Go for a walk. Use the celebrity of sunlight to show the world life moves on.
What good is memory if it never changes? We champion change, but why resist that mantra when it’s a memory you love to hate? I wish I could forgive my love for hating the memories of what I love about life. Why does hate have a better memory than love? Hate is a guarantee to deny yourself forgiveness, because we do not accept what we can’t change. What’s that say about memory? Can memories change? Unintentionally.
Memories fade if you DON’T practice remembering them. Why do you default to practicing hate? Does hate fade? No, because hate is EASY to remember. Why? Love requires two to make babies. Hate requires self to remember what makes you a victim to your mistaken memories being exposed by contempt. Bad memories are conservative with their traditions. That’s why people crave the other side of wrong.
I relive my past to remember why I should forget it. Sigh. It doesn't work. Stop asking questions and consume distraction. What distracts me attracts distraction from the truth. You and me are not original, but that's ok; at least now you're not alone. Jesus is your saviour. You have a community that can perfectly communicate happenstance. That’s an advantage because people who are stuck loving (to remember) why they should forget hate. Forget it. God is the gardener. God is the gardener to your seed.
"Humanity is a race of incestous-pedophiles, Ricky." Sardonic Poet
Just curious about the thoughts you don’t share. Oh I share my curious thoughts with an infuriating charm towards doubters. Oh…did…I go too far? Did my thoughts expose your trauma? Of course, all I can do is read minds. How? Humanity is homogeneous. The basic nuts and bolts are uniform across humanity. Example? I know humanity’s immutable flaw is the government’s procreation/population strategy of incestuous-pedophilia. I have documented it inside out; in my mind because I was so very fucking desperate to be rid of all putrid magnetism. You don't/didn’t like my leers. But now…you are gone. You shut the door when I crossed the line. That’s why you are afraid of the door; thanks to what’s on the other side: inconvenient truth. I read (read) your mind like a broken record, it’s the classic tale of procreation. Children are violated by sight. If your child enjoys being violated by sight (with incentives), that would mean children are encouraged (by adults) to embrace their sexuality...if...religions and schools were ruled by incestuous-pedophiles. What do religion and schools’ have most in common? The nuisance of incestuous-pedophilia. Why? Too much innocence can overwhelm a teacher’s compulsion to leer. Why do you leer? THAT thought...explains why you shut the door? You don’t like it when you deserve leers. “Nuance” nature chooses you.
“You deserve leers from attractive attention; that ends when you HIT… the wall, your value will plummet. It’s science.”
I’m sorry…did that cross the line? Have you been through psychosis? Well…let me tell you something: you can’t hide from yourself and expect happiness to take root. Can burnt roots grow? Yes. Downward. All the way down. To the bottom. Still not far enough? Further…than the bottom? You don’t say. In the span of three plus days of euphoria, I learned the worst things about myself. Only the truth would set me free. Is my truth the truth? That’s up to you to decide coward. You closed the door, so you are gone to me. You are a selfish-coward and hypocrite. The innocent learn from adults to like attention from attractive leers. That made you embrace the “nuance” and “nebulous” nature of sexual attraction that chooses you with leers. It starts with parent’s misguided love for celibacy, then works its way up the ladder until your innocence is extinguished following a wedding of vows. Why do you crave attractive leers? ATTENTION! It’s for Attention, you fucking idiot. Why did you shut the door? Let me think…I know, my intelligence disgusts you. I am a mirror; I only know what I don’t know. I show you how light reflects your choices. Your reflection is your receipt. Jesus saved you. You damn yourself with doubt. Bring me back to ancient Greece oh Lord. Ooops, that sounded like a wish. God doesn’t grant wishes.
Get over yourself Tabitha.
10/16/2022 0 Comments
Article #9 – What Makes you think you can get away with lying on camera? – 117 words
I’ll repeat myself…what makes you think you can get away with lying on camera? I claim those that gamble with their truths…do not respect “accurate” criticism. Those of you who choose not to lie to yourself, will agree…that you couldn’t live with yourself agreeing to the criticisms (that make you look inferior) in front of those whose opinions you do not respect? Gotcha. The law is criticized by those who don’t accept themselves enough to realize telling the truth is the best defence. Why? People from all places appreciate the courage of exercising honour and dignity in the face of criticism. Any criticism not delivered with care can be conquered by the truth that betrays your ego.
Thank you Jesus for my children.
Flaw creates the appetite for intelligence. How? Imperfection subtracts from truth with our lazy adherence to reality. Lethargic Intellectuals are isolated by their own creativity to the point no one has the courage to agree with definitions that undermine their own originality. Attempts to conceal disagreement are disguised with the word “Interesting.” You have words like “nebulous” and “nuance” that are popular because they encapsulate a position one understands without a necessary explanation. Why? Sounds smart. The word “Interesting” used to be one of those words. The problem with the word “interesting” is it compounds “nuance” and “nebulous” into a range of discovery so unexplored, the quality of the definition loses all significance (because it doesn’t undermine originality). You may have said “Interesting” out loud reading this article to highlight a point verbally to signal something has caught your attention. What motivates someone to say the word interesting and not explain themselves?
Therefore, I claim “Interesting” is a shit word. It’s an outdated crutch that buckles under the weight of cross examination. That’s all I ever hear from people consuming my work, “interesting.” How do I translate that into a following? Simple, I must walk back my originality until traction builds a symbiosis that doesn’t undermine other people’s originality. FUCK! That’s exactly what made me sick. Fuck the fuckin user! I have no balance because I’m bipolar. Then balance that imbalance with a following of people that humbly sacrifice their originality for wisdom. Are you that person? WHY NOT?! Oh, that’s right, you have “optimism.” How interesting…You see how shite that word is? Don’t you want to know WHY I find your faith in the future so “interesting?” Optimism is a mechanism that competes for relevance even when your circumstance cannot translate into success. It constantly hunts for relevance, along with the other mechanisms. I find it to be a nuisance. Maybe…just maybe you’ll stop using the word “Interesting” and sacrifice your fragile sense of self in exchange for life better studied with hindsight rather than experienced in real-time.
The more I know the less I know, the less I know the more I know. I know nothing. I’m a Sardonic Poet, in search of a following. Interested?
I don’t know more than the average person regarding the explanation of infinity. I’m not claiming to be the first to say this but, I’m going to suggest it anyway. If infinity is finite…our perception (at best) accelerates at/to the speed of light to confirm light travels at a constant speed. That means infinity can be breached by thought’s strength to create “simulations” of doubt a.k.a. “your” infinity. Why doubt? Breaking the speed of light is impossible…yet that doesn’t stop people from trying. Hence the doubt one will (not) fail. Doubt beseeches evidence (in God). I believe God is that breach between faith and evidence to confirm a simulation’s affinity to SIMULATE no end with nostalgia; or until it’s too late to correct course. I believe infinity accelerates and travels at/to the speed of light. If light is a constant speed, does gravity affect the universe of travelling light? I really don’t know more than the average person, that is clear. But…these thoughts are free from the penalties of tyranny. Hence the constant urge to control others. Why crave constant control? Is control a constant? Does freedom affect the delivery of euphoria, by breaking the grip of sin to defeat the wave(s) of the constant control sin desires? Humans enslave the indebted because flaws weed out the weak (of character).
Weak of character. Like Hitler and the Jews. Who do you know personally that models themselves on the personalities of Hitler and Jewish victimhood? I bet they believe in infinityyy. It’s a fact that is lost on the weak (of character). Life ends for us all. Armageddon is an individual journey or at least until our sun explodes. The speed and acceleration of your understanding of perceived fact damns “your” infinity to hell. Why? You’re not perfect. God is scripted. I encourage you to fact-check this. God is greater than infinity. God (to us) can represent anything that accelerates faster than light (like our rationale suffering defeat). I claim that is evidence of God. A human’s coping strategy with death works by denying their immutable flaw with unhinged delusion and conspiracy. A cornerstone of politics. I claim anything faster than light is evidence of God’s breach giving us evidence without proof to convince others. So God can be anything you believe in in a simulation of doubt. In this simulation, your infinity is your hero. Ego craves your control, so accept your flaws to protect yourself from yourself. Stay on the grey (as in pavement).
True intelligence accepts their immutable flaw with humility. Weed out the weak to resurrect Jesus. Just like Hitler tried to with the holocaust by… “weeding” out the weak. His words, not mine. Did Jesus come? Well, try again. Try and try. Never stop achieving the impossible. All the false prophets will enact their plans to evoke God through war. God knows how often you try because God is in everything. Reality is scripted by God. Everything is scripted. There is no such thing as autonomy, other than the preprogrammed rebellions and triumphs. So what? How does that change anything? Doubt is the God you must reject. Earth is not heaven. Earth can attack your beliefs or support them through life. Earth (as Joe Rogan said) is a super organism. Earth as a planet is a mammal. It gives birth to life and death. Atoms breed the universe. Life is not fair…so why should you accept that? Humility. Satan fools the humble with sin. Humble raves have no periphery to the dangers they ignore. God guards our planet.
My name is John Ralph Tuccitto.